Monday, January 07, 2008
What's the story now?
I'm not gonna privatize this blog just yet, i'll just pin it down over at my LJ, which no one knows the existence of it of cause. tsk.
Anyway, i might just quit my job. i hate it, the job hates me, and i'm not in good terms with everyone around here i think. hmm, will not say more. for now, i'll just mind my own fcking business, do what i'm supposed to, or not, and leave.
What i'll do after bidding that sucky job goodbye? textbooks and homeworks, with infested brain. i'm old, and i'm not functioning. how could i? when all these years have gone wasted, chililng and working my ass off, not knowing anyting about gaining more knowledge when my brain can still function as that of a school kid's mind? i should have just continued schooling at sucky SI LING secondary school, finish my O's, but no, i chose to go ITE with my other friends (konon, ape kawan buat, ikot like that ah), but at last, i'm regretting every stupid decision i've made. hmph.
Anyway, my dad knows about the 9 fricking piercing on my ears now (used to have 11, lol!), and he said that as long as i don't have any "tampal" thing on me, he's ok with it. except for mom of cuz. hmm, i wanna have my brows pierced badly!
i don't know why, but it seems that more and more fcking people are abusing me both physically and mentally. i'm so stupid. taking advantage of me, when... haiz. . it's ok. i'm immune to this kinda fucktards. as long as they're happy with what they're doing. i still have myself to pull through at times of falling down. but then again, the last time i fell down drastically was 3 fcking years ago. not gonna let history repeat itself.
for now, it doesnt matter. i'm better off by myself, i don't need pretenders for a friend. huahuahua. u suck.
