Thursday, April 03, 2008
What's the story now?
March seems to be winding up so fast. And now, it's already the 3rd day of April. Time is a killer, you'll never know what will happen in the very next minute. So who knows, you'll bid you last touch on this earth goodbye. Everytime when i learn about someone's death, i'll get so emotional. Thing is, i'm not ready for anybody's death. Not my family. Not my friends. Not anyone. Reading articles about anyone deaths, is totally heart wrenching. How can they be so irresponsible. They can't escape death, that i know, but they can prevent it from happening. Saddening enough.
Like Tsunami, the dragon boat's accident in Cambodia. And the deaths of the "miracle" baby's family. Every news is always about life's tragedy. Deaths after another. You can die from almost everything, anything. And what do you know, another guy dies dancing, while the other dies munching biscuits. So complicating.
May all souls rest in peace.
Well i know everything is in the hands of GOD. Our destiny, fate, life .. depends on GOD. Yes, maybe you've lost something which is so dear to u, but I'm sure GOD is fair. Like failed relationships, I believe if it's not meant for us life moves on. Maybe, GOD has found someone better for you(this is what i've been telling myself to keep me strong :p). But when? Time will tell, again. heh.
Whatever it is, I'm glad enough we've crossed each other's path. It may be short, but it has somehow built me up to a better person. I don't really mean whatever i say when i'm so angry,but i just can't help it. And i'm trying to deal with it. I regret every single thing that has been said or done out of foolishness, out of anger. Tsk, regret, it's too late to realize. I REALIZE that.
But love is indeed a wonderful feeling. Feel like you're on cloud nine. But when it fails, it's the most horrible experience as a whole. But hey, that's life. Bad experience will make u learn, and will somewhat makes u think that when u have something in this life, and when u don't treat it good, it'll be in the hands of others. A better someone whom well...might not be perfect...but close to perfect to spend a lifetime with you. I may not know what love exactly is in full facts, or in general, love is just so.....weird, but i've been in it. Fool in love, too full in love, that i just can't grab hold of myself. And i don't think u guys wanna hear about it anwyay, so i'll pass.
Now i know the value of life, the short time span i have in this "life", and to treasure and thank for what i have had. For now, i just need the guidance from my family, and my friends. They're my life, they're my everything. So GOD, perhaps it's about time? hehe.
Syukur Alhamdulliah, for what i've been given, for the luxuries i have, for the most loving and doting parents, for the most wonderful friends, for those who came and left (too soon) in my life, for the food that i've been given, for this job, and most of all, for this Life. Never take things for granted, that i should bear in mind. If you think that you're life is bad,
But i hope that u won't take my parents too soon, cuz i can picture myself without them. Take my life first if you should.
Take care. Perhaps, it's about time to reconcile? hmm~
